translation:it reminds him of his boyfriend
I love how he calls it “sad” and yet he was willing to give an arm and a leg to be one of them.
truth be told wanting to become one of the Whisperers(creatures without any will whatsoever or anything really)was a pretty weird ambition to have
I didn’t like the “he only wanted a place to belong” explanation the comic gave. He constantly pushed away the closest thing resembling friends he had (Vathek, Elyon) in favor of Phobos - and how much closer could he be to Phobos? This is the dude who trapped someone in a painting because he didn’t want people to know what he looked like, and he was letting Cedric talk to him in person and even see him bath.
At that point it was either purely about power (and he miscalculated whisperers being entirely controlled by Phobos) or it was all about Phobos (and he was just that obsessed with him). Hell, it might have been both, given how he reacts when Phobos ditches him in Kandrakar.